Driving Test Today!
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accident prone
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Well, today is my driving test at 11:11 am exactly and I'm nervous as heck. I wish I hadn't had to do this test - I could gladly cancel right now and I won't mind losing my money :).
You see I know I'm going to fail ... because when I'm nervous my driving goes to pieces, and my already bad clutching gets worst ... at least I'm alright on the large roundabouts the mini-roundabouts are ok, but the double mini-roundabouts do throw me - so I have to remember to stop at the give-way lines. I think my two biggest problems will be to remember to check my mirrors particularly when I'm braking and ensuring I keep up to the speed of the row. But I usually can keep up to the speed of the road, but I usually have to take a breather to do that before I can go down back.
I think one of my hardest problems is traffic lights, not going when it is green etc., but at traffic lights there are other vehicles and I'm always scared of rear-ending them, that I brake harshly rather than smoothly - and I'm thinking that is not good.
My clutch control on the hills are not good so I have to remember to use my hand-brake since I won't be able to do that with my clutch and accelerator alone - well, probably can do it - if my nerves were better, but when I get anxious or panic my movements become jerky and I want to go as fast as possible so I could get the miserable test over and done with - what I have to remember is to take my time and be calm no matter what happens and not to get anxious or panic - easier said than done - probably I can chant "Ommm" in my head and it might calm me down.
Also, at zebra crossings, I've to check my mirror and see the people and stuff, yesterday didn't see the people on the zebra crossing and Lisa had to stop the car - not good :) ... oh, well the best I'm hoping from this test is that I don't get any dangerous - I can deal with majors but dangerous - will mean I'm a dangerous driver and that might break my confidence (not that I have much confidence when I'm driving anyhow - because of my panic and anxiety behaviour).
When I'm calm I drive really good - because just relaxing etc and not thinking about what the other person is thinking about my driving so much. Besides, usually I know where I'm going when I'm relaxing and driving but with these tests they tell you where to go and I am so accustomed to knowing where I'm going to drive properly, even when I'm not driving I like to know the plan that there is in for the drive unless it is Papa driving because then I know he'll take care of whatever but generally I like to know where we are going because I can then map the route in my head, since when I'm anxious or panicky, if someone says right it somehow becomes left in my head and vice versa, I think I'm going to screw up with directions. And although I might repeat right, my brain might still think it is left. Why can't they saying we are going that way, and point? At least I'll know :D.
I think this getting confused with right and left must run in the family, because Amalia only knows her right hand from her left hand, because she has a scar in her left hand, and Ritch always get confuse with left and right, since he'll say he is turning left when he is driving and then he turns right. So, it is a family thing. I've never seen mum or pa do that though ... must be two recessive genes in all of us :).
Posted by prejudice
at 8:40 AM GMT